In The Diary of Mykael

[CHAR!]

we are proud to present to you. ..
MYKAELTHOMASJESSEN

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I want a normal life
just like a new born child
I am a lover hater
I am an instigator
You are an oversight
Don't try to compromise
I'll learn to love to hate it
I am not integrated
,

WHY GIVE UP WHY GIVE IN

IT’S NOT ENOUGH IT NEVER IS

BEST FRIENDS HOLD IT TOGETHER BIRDS OF A FEATHER NO
CLOSE FRIENDS THING BUT LIES AND CROOKED WINGS I HA
AVERAGE FRIEND VE THE ANSWER SPREADING THE CANCER
FAMILY FRIEND YOU ARE THE FAITH INSIDE ME NO DON’T L
CHILDHOOD FRIEND EAVE ME TO DIE HERE HELP ME SURVI
ACQUAINTANCE VE HERE ALONE DON’T REMEMBER REMEM
GOOD FRIEND BER PUT ME TO SLEEP EVIL ANGEL OPEN YOU
PARTNER IN CRIME R WINGS EVIL ANGEL I’M A BELIEVER N
ENEMY TURNED OTHING COULD BE WORSE ALL THESE IMAG
FAKE FRIEND INARY FRIENDS HIDING BETRAYAL DRIVING T
PARTY BUDDY HE NAIL HOPING TO FIND A SAVIOR NO DON’T
MAKE-OUT BUDDY LEAVE ME TO DIE HERE HELP ME SURVIV
FUCK BUDDY E HERE ALONE DON’T SURRENDER SURRENDER
STUDY BUDDY PUT ME TO SLEEP EVIL ANGEL OPEN YOUR WI
FORBIDDEN FRIEND NGS EVIL ANGEL OH FLY OVER ME EVIL
SECRET FRIEND ANGEL WHY CAN’T I BREATHE EVIL ANGEL P
OTHER HALF UT ME TO SLEEP EVIL ANGEL OPEN YOUR WING
INSEPERABLE S EVIL ANGEL OH FLY OVER ME EVIL ANGEL W
BY ASSOCIATION HY CAN’T I BREATHE EVIL ANGEL SO CLEVE
INNER CIRCLE R WHATEVER I’M DONE WITH THESE ENDEAV
OUTER CIRCLE ORS ALONE I WALK THE WINDING WAY HERE
CONFIDANT I STAY IT’S OVER NO LONGER I FEEL IT GROWING
LIKE FAMILY STRONG I’LL LIVE TO DIE ANOTHER DAY UNTIL I
ON AND OFF FADE AWAY WHY GIVE UP WHY GIVE IN IT’S NOT
FOR SHOW ENOUGH IT NEVER IS SO I WILL GO ON UNTIL THE
TRUSTED FRIEND WE’VE BECOME DESOLATE IT’S NOT ENOUG
FRENEMY H IT NEVER IS BUT I WILL GO ON UNTIL THE END S
SCHOOL FRIEND URROUND ME IT’S EASY TO FALL APART COM
FRIEND OF A FRIEND PLETELY I FEEL YOU CREEPING UP AGAI
FUTURE FRIEND N IN MY HEAD IT’S OVER NO LONGER I FEEL I
UNLIKELY FRIEND T GROWING COLDER I KNEW THIS WOULD
FORMER FRIEND COME TO END SO LET THIS LIFE BEGIN WHY
TOP TEN GIVE UP WHY GIVE IN IT’S NOT ENOUGH IT NEVER IS
LUNCH BUDDY SO I WILL GO ON UNTIL THE END WE’VE BECO
SHOPPING BUDDY ME DESOLATE IT’S NOT ENOUGH IT NEVER
PEN PAL IS BUT I WILL GO ON UNTIL THE END I’VE LOST MY W
ANNOYING FRIEND AY I’VE LOST MY WAY BUT I WILL GO ON U
GAL PAL NTIL THE END LIVING IS HARD ENOUGH WITHOUT Y
GUY PAL OU FUCKING UP WHY GIVE UP WHY GIVE IN IT’S NOT
SPORTS PAL ENOUGH IT NEVER IS SO I WILL GO ON UNTIL TH
GOSSIP FRIEND E END WE’VE BECOME DESOLATE IT’S NOT EN
FLIRTY FRIEND OUGH IT NEVER IS BUT I WILL GO ON UNTIL T
SHARE THE SAME VALUES HE END I’VE LOST MY WAY I’VE LOS
DRINKING BUDDY T MY WAY BUT I WILL GO ON UNTIL THE EN

YOU'RE THE PART OF ME

THAT I DON'T WANNA SEE

MUTUAL RIVALRY YOU MY FRIEND YOU’RE A LOT LIKE THEM
MUTUAL DISLIKE BUT I CAUGHT YOUR LIE AND YOU KNOW I
MUTUAL JEALOUSY DID NOW I’M LOST IN YOU LIKE I ALWAY
MUTUAL ENVY S DO AND I’D DIE TO WIN ‘CAUSE I’M BORN TO
MUTUAL HATRED LOSE FIREFLY COULD YOU SHINE YOUR LI
ONE-SIDED RIVALRY GHT NOW I KNOW YOUR WAYS ‘CAUSE T
ONE-SIDED DISLIKE HEY’RE JUST LIKE MINE NOW I’M JUSTIF
ONE-SIDED JEALOUSY IED AS I FALL IN LINE AND IT’S HARD T
ONE-SIDED ENVY RY WHEN YOU’RE OPEN WIDE TAKE MY HAN
ONE-SIDED HATRED D WE’LL BE OFF AND THEN WE’LL COME
AVOIDANCE BACK AGAIN TO A DIFFERENT LAND NOW I LIKE T
TOLERANCE HIS WAY YOU CAN GO AWAY IF YOU GUESS THE N
FRIEND TURNED ENEMY AME YOU CANNOT REPLACE FIREFL
FAMILY ENEMY Y COULD YOU SHINE YOUR LIGHT NOW I KNO
BY ASSOCIATION W YOUR WAYS ‘CAUSE THEY’RE JUST LIKE M
IRRITATION INE NOW I’M JUSTIFIED AS I FALL IN LINE AND IT
ANNOYANCE ’S HARD TO TRY WHEN YOU’RE OPEN WIDE BRIN
TENSION G ME YOUR ENEMIES LAY THEM BEFORE ME AND W
HARDCORE ALK AWAY WALK AWAY WALK AWAY FIREFLY CO
GRUDGE ULD YOU SHINE YOUR LIGHT NOW I KNOW YOUR W
VENDETTA AYS ‘CAUSE THEY’RE JUST LIKE MINE NOW I’M JUS
DIE DIE DIE TIFIED AS I FALL IN LINE AND IT’S HARD TO TRY W
BURN IN HELL HEN YOU’RE OPEN WIDE FUCK YOU FIREFLY H
COMPETITION AVE YOU LOST YOUR LIGHT NOW I HATE YOUR
ARGUMENTATIVE WAYS ‘CAUSE THEY’RE JUST LIKE MINE SO
BACKSTABBED ME LOST MY FRIEND SUCH A SORRY END AND
BACKSTABBED YOU I DON’T KNOW WHY SO I JOKE AND SMILE
CHEATED ME LET’S GO THE DAY HAS COME TO AN END THE S
CHEATED YOU UN IS OVER MY HEAD MY POLYAMOROUS FRIE
INDIFFERENCE ND YOU GOT ME IN A MESS OF TROUBLE AGAI
RESPECTED RIVALS N SO JUST WHEN YOU THINK THAT YOU’R
FRIENDLY RIVALS E ALL RIGHT I’M CALLING OUT FROM THE I
MUTUAL FEAR NSIDE I NEVER HURT ANYONE I NEVER LISTEN
ONE-SIDED FEAR AT ALL THEY’VE COME TO GET ME AGAIN TH
IGNORING ME E CLOUD IS OVER MY HEAD MY POLYAMOROUS
IGNORING YOU FRIEND YOU GOT ME IN A MESS OF TROUBLE
NOT SPEAKING TO ME AGAIN SO JUST WHEN YOU THINK THAT
NOT SPEAKING TO YOU YOU’RE ALRIGHT I’M CALLING OUT FR
UNFRIENDLY RIVAL OM THE INSIDE I NEVER HURT ANYONE I
PHYSICAL CONFRONTATION NEVER LISTEN AT ALL JUST STAY
VERBAL CONFRONTATION AWAY FROM THE WHITE LIGHT I’D
DISRESPECT SAY YOUR WORST SIDE’S YOUR BEST SIDE I NEVE
LOATHING R HURT ANYONE I NEVER LISTEN AT ALL WELL HO
JERK W DO YOU KNOW WELL HOW DO YOU KNOW WELL HOW

THERE IS A FINE LINE

BETWEEN LOVE AND HATE

CURRENT IF I HAD TO I WOULD PUT MYSELF RIGHT BESIDE Y
SPOUSE OU SO LET ME ASK WOULD YOU LIKE THAT WOULD Y
FIANCE OU LIKE THAT AND I DON’T MIND IF YOU SAY THIS LO
FINAL VE IS THE LAST TIME SO NOW I’LL ASK DO YOU LIKE TH
EX WITH GOOD CHEMISTRY AT DO YOU LIKE THAT NO SOMET
EX WITH BAD CHEMISTRY HING’S GETTING IN THE WAY SOM
EX WITH MUTUAL CHEMISTRY ETHING’S JUST ABOUT TO BRE
SECRET AK I WILL TRY TO FIND MY PLACE IN THE DIARY OF J
FORBIDDEN ANE SO TELL ME HOW IT SHOULD BE TRY TO FIN
ON AND OFF D OUT WHAT MAKES YOU TICK AS I LIE DOWN SO
CHILDHOOD CRUSH RE AND SICK DO YOU LIKE THAT DO YOU
CRUSH ON YOU LIKE THAT THERE’S A FINE LINE BETWEEN L
CRUSH ON ME OVE AND HATE AND I DON’T MIND JUST LET M
MUTUAL CRUSH E SAY THAT I LIKE THAT I LIKE THAT SOMET
CURRENT FLING HING’S GETTING IN THE WAY SOMETHING’S
PAST FLING JUST ABOUT TO BREAK I WILL TRY TO FIND MY P
FUTURE FLING LACE IN THE DIARY OF JANE AS I BURN ANOT
CHEMISTRY HER PAGE AS I LOOK THE OTHER WAY I STILL TR
BITTER MOSTLY SWEET Y TO FIND MY PLACE IN THE DIARY O
FUTURE CRUSH F JANE SO TELL ME HOW IT SHOULD BE DESP
INFATUATION ERATE I WILL CRAWL WAITING FOR SO LONG N
ONE NIGHT STAND O LOVE THERE IS NO LOVE DIE FOR ANYO
PUPPY LOVE NE WHAT HAVE I BECOME SOMETHING’S GETTIN
INNOCENT FLIRTING G IN THE WAY SOMETHING’S JUST ABOU
FLEETING GLANCES T TO BREAK I WILL TRY TO FIND MY PLAC
IN DENIAL E IN THE DIARY OF JANE AS I BURN ANOTHER PAG
SOUL MATES E AS I LOOK THE OTHER WAY I STILL TRY TO FIN
PHYSICAL ATTRACTION D MY PLACE IN THE DIARY OF JANE I
LUSTING FOR ME SEE NOTHING IN YOUR EYES AND THE MOR
LUSTING FOR YOU E I SEE THE LESS I LIKE IS IT OVER YET IN
SCHOOLYARD FLIRTS MY HEAD I KNOW NOTHING OF YOUR KI
YOU’RE USING ME ND AND I WON’T REVEAL YOUR EVIL MIND
I’M USING YOU IS IT OVER YET I CAN’T WIN SO SACRIFICE YOU
NOT SO INNOCENT FLIRTING RSELF AND LET ME HAVE WHAT’
MUTUAL FLIRTING S LEFT I KNOW THAT I CAN FIND A FIRE IN
YOU’RE FLIRTING WITH ME YOUR EYES I’M GOING ALL THE W
I’M FLIRTING WITH YOU AY GET AWAY PLEASE YOU TAKE THE
DRUNKEN FLIRTS BREATH RIGHT OUT OF ME YOU LEFT A HOL
POSSIBLE FINAL E WHERE MY HEART SHOULD BE YOU’VE GOT
FUTURE EX TA FIGHT JUST TO MAKE IT THROUGH ‘CAUSE I WI
DYSFUNCTIONAL LL BE THE DEATH OF YOU THIS WILL BE ALL
LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT OVER SOON POUR THE SALT INTO THE O
FOR SHOW PEN WOUND IS IT OVER YET LET ME IN SO SACRIFI
ON THE ROCKS CE YOURSELF AND LET ME HAVE WHAT’S LEFT

MY HANDS ARE BROKEN

AND TIME IS GOING ON

MOTHER BORDERLINE DEAD INSIDE I DON’T MIND FALLING
FATHER TO PIECES COUNT ME IN VIOLENT LET’S BEGIN FEE
SISTER DING THE SICKNESS HOW DO I SIMPLIFY DISLOCATE
BROTHER THE ENEMIES ON THE WAY SHOW ME WHAT IT’S
AUNT LIKE TO DREAM IN BLACK AND WHITE SO I CAN LEAV
UNCLE E THIS WORLD TONIGHT FULL OF FEAR EVER CLEAR
COUSIN I’LL BE HERE FIGHTING FOREVER CURIOUS VENOM
RESPECTIVE OF ME OUS YOU’LL FIND ME CLIMBING TO HEA
RESPECTIVE OF YOU VE VEN NEVERMIND TURN BACK TIME
MUTUAL ADORATION YOU’LL BE FINE I WILL GET LEFT BEH
ONE-SIDED ADORATION IND SHOW ME WHAT IT’S LIKE TO D
HOUSEMATE REAM IN BLACK AND WHITE SO I CAN LEAVE T
TEAMMATE HIS WORLD TONIGHT HOLDING ON TOO TIGHT
ROOMMATE BRING THE BREATH OF LIFE SO I CAN LEAVE T
TEACHER HIS WORLD BEHIND IT ONLY HURTS JUST ONCE T
COLLEAGUE HEY’RE ONLY BROKEN BONES HIDE THE HATE
STUDENT INSIDE SHOW ME WHAT IT’S LIKE TO DREAM IN B
FIRST NAME BASIS LACK AND WHITE SO I CAN LEAVE THIS
LAST NAME BASIS WORLD TONIGHT HOLDING ON TOO TIGH
BOTH NAME BASIS T BRING THE BREATH OF LIFE SO I CAN L
MISSING YOU EAVE THIS WORLD BEHIND HERE I STAND HE
MISSING ME LPLESS AND LEFT FOR DEAD CLOSE YOUR EYES
GOD-FATHER SO MANY DAYS GO BY EASY TO FIND WHAT’S W
IGNORING ME RONG HARDER TO FIND WHAT’S RIGHT I BEL
IGNORING YOU IVE IN YOU SHOW YOU THAT I CAN SEE RIGH
PROTECTIVE OF ME T THROUGH ALL YOUR EMPTY LIES I WO
PROTECTIVE OF YOU N’T STAY THIS LONG IN THIS WORLD S
GUARDIAN ANGEL O WRONG SAY GOODBYE AS WE DANCE W
STALKING ME ITH THE DEVIL TONIGHT DON’T YOU DARE LO
STALKING YOU OK AT HIM IN THE EYE AS WE DANCE WITH T
KEEPING SECRETS FROM ME HE DEVIL TONIGHT TREMBLIN
KEEPING SECRETS FROM YOU G CRAWLING ACROSS MY SKIN
MUTUALLY KEEPING SECRETS FEEDING YOUR COLD DEAD E
I’M YOUR HERO YES STEALING THE LIFE OF MINE I BELIEVE
YOU’RE MY HERO IN YOU I CAN SHOW YOU THAT I CAN SEE R
GRANDMOTHER IGHT THROUGH ALL YOUR EMPTY LIES SO I
GRANDFATHER WON’T LAST LONG IN THIS WORLD SO WRON
GREAT AUNT G SAY GOODBYE AS WE DANCE WITH THE DEVI
GREAT UNCLE L TONIGHT DON’T YOU DARE LOOK AT HIM IN
GOD-MOTHER THE EYES AS WE DANCE WITH THE DEVIL TO
GOOD INFLUENCE NIGHT HOLD ON HOLD ON SAY GOODBYE
BAD INFLUENCE AS WE DANCE WITH THE DEVIL TONIGHT D
MIXED FEELINGS ON‘T YOU DARE LOOK AT HIM IN THE EYE
OTHER (SPECIFY) AS WE DANCE WITH THE DEVIL TONIGHT

PROMISE ME YOU'LL TRY

TO LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND

so the lovely plot page you see here was made by yours truly, skylarrlove of
caution 2.0! she worked really hard on it, and it really made her mad, so
please don’t steal it. besides, if you do, she’ll send her straight-edge fighter
and her sister’s rainbow-haired warrior to kick your butt until you apologize.
and we definitely don’t want that, now do we? okay, so she got a little inspiration
on some of the relationships from NORA CONVERSE, because she ran out and
couldn’t think of any. colors are from color blender, i mean could you imagine
figuring all those numbers out yourself? and all of the lyrics are from the band
breaking benjamin. songs used are as follows: evil angel, until the end, firefly,
polyamorous, diary of jane, breathe, unknown soldier, and dance with
the devil. the section headers are also lyrics by breaking benjamin! they’re from
the songs: until the end, forget it, diary of jane, and the last two are both
from the song you.

now there are a few rules. one: don’t be shy, put more than two relationships.
two: saying ‘put me anywhere’, will get you nowhere. three: you fill out mine,
i fill out yours. vice versa. eventually. but i promise i will fill it out. next, make
the history/what your person think of my person interesting, but just remember
that i have the right to reject anything that i don’t agree with. but don’t worry too
much about that, just talk to me about it and i’m sure it’ll be perfectly fine. oh and
just for the record, ‘me’ means your character. ‘you’ means my character.

[CHAR!]

OH DEAR DID YOU WANT TO FILL THIS OUT
WELL HERE'S A FORM AND AN EXAMPLE TOO

PHILLIPJACKBROOKS

THIS FRIEND DRUG ADDICT MALE HAS BEEN LIVING
AND BREATHING FOR THE PAST EIGHTEEN YEARS AND
CONSIDERS HIMSELF A GOOD FRIEND OF MYKAEL.

RELATIONSHIPS

FAMILY FRIEND YOU ARE THE FAITH INSIDE ME NO DON’T L
CHILDHOOD FRIEND EAVE ME TO DIE HERE HELP ME SURVI
GOOD FRIEND BER PUT ME TO SLEEP EVIL ANGEL OPEN YOU
FRIENDLY RIVALS E ALL RIGHT I’M CALLING OUT FROM THE I
CHILDHOOD CRUSH RE AND SICK DO YOU LIKE THAT DO YOU
RESPECTIVE OF ME OUS YOU’LL FIND ME CLIMBING TO HEA
RESPECTIVE OF YOU VE VEN NEVERMIND TURN BACK TIME

PHILLIP SAYS
blah blah blah blah blah

MYKAEL SAYS
blah blah blah to you too then

[center][FONT=GEORGIA][size=5][color=5D89FF]FIRST[/color][color=E8EEFF]MIDDLE[/color][color=5D89FF]LAST[/color][/size]
[IMG]3[/IMG][IMG]MATCHING[/IMG][IMG]ICONS[/IMG]
[size=1][color=5D9EFF]THIS [/color][color=E8F1FF][b]adjective[/b] [b]adjective[/b] [b]GUY/GAL[/b][/color] [color=5D9EFF]HAS BEEN LIVING
AND BREATHING FOR THE PAST[/color] [color=E8F1FF][b]AGE WRITTEN OUT[/b][/color] [color=5D9EFF]YEARS AND
CONSIDERS HIMSELF A[/color] [color=E8F1FF][b]I’LL FILL IN[/b][/color] [color=5D9EFF]OF[/color] [color=E8F1FF][b]MYKAEL[/b][/color][color=5D9EFF].[/color][/size][/FONT][/CENTER]
[FONT=GEORGIA][center][size=3][color=White]RELATIONSHIPS[/color][/size][/center][/FONT]
[CENTER][font=GEORGIA][size=1]relationships go here. quote first post for colors, please.[/size][/font][/center]
[font=georgia][center][b][color=WHITE][size=3]YOURNAMEHERE SAYS[/size][/color][/b]
[size=1][color=8BB9FF]what your character thinks of my character.[/color][/size]

[b][color=WHITE][size=3]MYKAEL SAYS[/size][/color][/b]
[size=1][color=8BB9FF]what i think of your character. i’ll fill in or you can copy and paste what i said if i’ve already posted in yours.[/color][/size][/center][/font]

[CHAR!]

GIRLS DON'T LIKE BOYS
(GIRLS LIKE CARS AND MONEY)

BOYS WILL LAUGH AT GIRLS
(WHEN THEY'RE NOT FUNNY)

NOAHLANDONALLISON

THIS awkward and crazy GUY HAS BEEN LIVING
AND BREATHING FOR THE PAST TWENTY YEARS AND
CONSIDERS HIMSELF A FRIEND OF MYKAEL.

RELATIONSHIPS

AVERAGE FRIEND VE THE ANSWER SPREADING THE CANCER
MAKE-OUT BUDDY LEAVE ME TO DIE HERE HELP ME SURVIV
ON AND OFF FADE AWAY WHY GIVE UP WHY GIVE IN IT’S NOT
GUY PAL OU FUCKING UP WHY GIVE UP WHY GIVE IN IT’S NOT
CRUSH ON YOU LIKE THAT THERE’S A FINE LINE BETWEEN L
PUPPY LOVE NE WHAT HAVE I BECOME SOMETHING’S GETTIN
INNOCENT FLIRTING G IN THE WAY SOMETHING’S JUST ABOU
MUTUAL ADORATION YOU’LL BE FINE I WILL GET LEFT BEH
PROTECTIVE OF ME T THROUGH ALL YOUR EMPTY LIES I WO
GOOD INFLUENCE NIGHT HOLD ON HOLD ON SAY GOODBYE
OTHER (FUTURE) AS WE DANCE WITH THE DEVIL TONIGHT

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NOAH SAYS
Mykael is amazing, he's always offering up some advice, even if he cannot take his own advice, he gives it up like it's nothing. Mykael's very cute, and I'd love to get to know him better, like, a lot better. He seems really distant though so I'm not sure how it would work. We flirt a lot and on days when I don't have school or work I follow him around like a puppy. I'm very protective of him because he likes to get himself into danger, and danger is like, his middle name or something. I feel bad for Mykael, living on the streets and I try to help him as much as possible, I keep telling him he's more then welcome at my house, but he denies it. Sometimes it makes me think he doesn't like me, sometimes it makes me wonder if he could ever love him, as the world seems to know I love him. I wish he could just be happy, with whatever he wants to do, and I want to provide that for him if he ever really wants to accept help. I guess it's a pride thing, not accepting help, but it scares me, what if he really does get hurt? I don't think I could bare it.

MYKAEL SAYS
allie's awesome, i really like him, i think he has a crush on me, he likes to be around me a lot and he giggles when i call him miss. i don't call him noah, because he introduced himself as allie, even if his birthname is noah, i like allie a little better anyway. he helps me out a whole lot, kind of like kat. i'll have to introduce her to allie someday soon. allie offers for me to stay at his house a lot but i'm scared, kind of, like not of him but of what he might try, we've kissed a few times, and it was cool but i don't know if i want a relationship, it's really hard right now, maybe in the future we can hook up.

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